BillaBrown

other title could have been Scottish Jedward.

Should it be getting easier, should I be dealing with this better than I am?

I'm just so tired!!!

The slightest knock, slap, twist or turn and I am aware of it. I can feel it move or feel the pressure behind my eyes. It's always there 24/7 you can't forget about it or turn off to it.

I'm just so tired,
I want the old me back,
I want to sleep for more than 2 hours straight at a time,
I'm lost and struggling to find me,
I want to sleep for 6 hours straight,
Will this get easier?
I want to sleep,
When will it all go away?
When can I rest?
Am I paying enough attention to my girls?
When do I relax?
Can I turn off?
What will happen if I ditch the control side of me for a while?
How when surrounded by great family and friends can you feel so isolated?

Head is all over the place at present but feeling drained and exhausted tonight.